EHHH? Has it been this long already since I made a post? I'm bad at being consistent in journal writing. This is why I'm bad :(
Hmm so where to start?! Alot of time has passed. Freshman year of college is over (has been over for almost 3 months) and fall semester of sophomore year is about to start. Uhoh. My mind is set on summer as being infinite. I think this summer has been pretty productive. I learned new things, was able to meet nice new people, and was less lazy this summer than any other summers I can remember. I do miss lazy days though that consist of eating ice cream and cake while watching a marathon of movies and dramas all day.
^ Being lazy is a big problem for me though. I keep using it as an excuse to not focus on the things that matter and that cannot be delayed. I feel so up and down sometimes in my walk as a Christian. I'm not sure if I can call it a walk yet or if I can firmly say that I am a Christian yet. I'm trying to be stronger. I want to want more of God. I want to experience what it feels like to be on fire for God. But I'm not sure if my desire is great enough. I pray for selfish reasons sometimes, when I need something from God right away. And I talk to Him for only a short while and go off to do other things that keep me busy. I feel a tug when I think of my friends and family who don't know God. JDSN said that before I can save anyone, I need to save myself. If me and someone else I know is drowning, I need to reach the shore to be able to save that person. I feel like it's going to take a long while for me to reach the shore. My heart moves but my mind isn't as willing. :(
so hungry!
So many times a reality adjustment is needed for us to grow in Christ. The lures of the world are many and the race seems long. Defeat the pleasures of this world and sin with a superior pleasure--Christ!
ReplyDeleteIf Christ did not historically resurrect, well then... read 1 Corinthians 15:17-19.
It was good to see you again! You've grown =)
yeah i feel that hunger too. =)
ReplyDeletehannah, God doesn't turn away an honest seeker. He saids that when we seek Him we will find Him when we seek Him with all our hearts. (Jeremiah 29:13-14a)
don't try to measure up to the people around you and feel defeated thinking that you don't have "it" but it seems like everyone else does.
The desire is God given and God maintained.
we just have to ask, trust and obey.
i'm praying for you, hannah. =)