FIrst Post of 2010!

EHHH? Has it been this long already since I made a post? I'm bad at being consistent in journal writing. This is why I'm bad :(

Hmm so where to start?! Alot of time has passed. Freshman year of college is over (has been over for almost 3 months) and fall semester of sophomore year is about to start. Uhoh. My mind is set on summer as being infinite. I think this summer has been pretty productive. I learned new things, was able to meet nice new people, and was less lazy this summer than any other summers I can remember. I do miss lazy days though that consist of eating ice cream and cake while watching a marathon of movies and dramas all day.

^ Being lazy is a big problem for me though. I keep using it as an excuse to not focus on the things that matter and that cannot be delayed. I feel so up and down sometimes in my walk as a Christian. I'm not sure if I can call it a walk yet or if I can firmly say that I am a Christian yet. I'm trying to be stronger. I want to want more of God. I want to experience what it feels like to be on fire for God. But I'm not sure if my desire is great enough. I pray for selfish reasons sometimes, when I need something from God right away. And I talk to Him for only a short while and go off to do other things that keep me busy. I feel a tug when I think of my friends and family who don't know God. JDSN said that before I can save anyone, I need to save myself. If me and someone else I know is drowning, I need to reach the shore to be able to save that person. I feel like it's going to take a long while for me to reach the shore. My heart moves but my mind isn't as willing. :(

so hungry!

bank account!! & New Beginnings :O

I opened up my very own first bank account ever! I went with my mom to open up a checkings account =). It took so little time and I just need to go sometime next week to pick up the debit card.

College class officially starts on Monday @ 8:40 am. -_- booooo. so early gosh! im kinda nervous/anxious/antsy/ kinda jealous of friends who are going away or moving into their dorms =T. I wana move toooo! (kinda)

and I miss them. =(

It's August!

college is starting soon. ehhhhh?! =( . and orientation is for 3 days. soo long

work work work

work is work. it starts early and ends late -.-' aigoo. by the end, im always so tired. this was only the first week n it feels like a looong time has passed already.

a sleepy sunday?

i think i woke up around 1ish. and i was just lying in my bed. Then, I started reading Bartimaeus: Amulet of Samarkand by Jonathan Stroud. It's really good! Then i was a lil tired and hungry. We ate fried octopus tempura. and now im full =). but still feeling sluggish. youtubing at the moment!

ohh! Last night, i set a new personal record =D ! I ran for about 40 minutes and burned.. 606 calories!!! wooohoooooo =) . My runs aren't really consistent. but i ran for the most i did in awhile yesterday.

Tomorrow, work =\. bleh. ahhhhh! darn me. i said id be at work by 8. -_____-' whyd i do that?! i love sleeping! :T

i get to choose new glasses tomorrow hopefully!! 8D

New haircut -.-"

im a haircut addict.. LOL. i just always want another haircut, even if i don't need it. My hair was already short, and uhhh, i got it cut again anyway -_______-. haha i guess it's like im always trying to find a new hairdo that suits me. It's a bit short now..and uhh..really flat..and uh.. not much i can do with it except wait for it to grow out. gosh. it reminds of the boyish fob cut i had before -.- and i dont like it. grr. hopefully it grows out fast? haha. and i really need to stop getting so many haircuts. pretty soon, there won't be any hair left. to cut.

lost.

kinda confused. lost? even with the people that you're close to, sometimes you feel awkward. out of place? ..insecure? =\
wanting to please everyone, & forgetting that happiness begins with being happy with yourself.