It is 5:12 am on a Sunday. I fell asleep pretty soon after I got home, and I woke up about 20 minutes ago. Restful but unsatisfying sleep.
My bad, blogger! I've been tumbling away and neglected you. Tumbling has this appeal to the eye because it allows you to reblog the pretty pictures and the endlessly funny posts that you encounter.
Craving a nice hearty breakfast of eggs, sausage, and potatoes.
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Tonight was the first praise night of 2012 at my big's church. The preacher Jimmy shared a powerful testimony. You have to die to yourself and cling to the cross. He said that's the only way to truly be saved.
He was right on the spot when he mentioned how always trying to do the right thing and trying to be nice and moral isn't the "Christian" thing to do. Being Christian isn't about being goody goody. It's more about loving God, so you love people. You want to be Holy because Jesus is Holy, and you want to embody him through yourself so that when other people look at you, they say, "Who are youu?!"
I think tonight was also the first time I felt fear when listening to a sermon. Jimmy said that we must cling to the cross if we are to be saved. God will hold us accountable for all the thoughts, motives, and actions we've ever committed. God is majestic, just, and perfect. Standing before a holy and perfect God, I without a single doubt will have so many sins.
I don't know the first step, how to begin. How do I tackle this?
My old pastor was Jimmy! :o did he migrate to your church?
ReplyDeleteBut yes I struggle with the same thoughts, same troubles. they disturb me at night and give me unpleasant rest. When I should be relying most on God, I feel myself turning away :(
on the other hand, when will you come sleep over with me. we can make breakfast foods together. it's my favorite meal of the day!
When I think about God's holiness and my own sinfulness, that's when I truly appreciate the gospel. It's knowing that although our good works are like filthy rags compared to the works of God, he loves us so much. He is a just God and therefore holds us accountable for things we do. But above that, He is a loving God who substituted His perfect son for our sins.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWgeUrD4MHI
reminds me of this song =)