EHHH? Has it been this long already since I made a post? I'm bad at being consistent in journal writing. This is why I'm bad :(
Hmm so where to start?! Alot of time has passed. Freshman year of college is over (has been over for almost 3 months) and fall semester of sophomore year is about to start. Uhoh. My mind is set on summer as being infinite. I think this summer has been pretty productive. I learned new things, was able to meet nice new people, and was less lazy this summer than any other summers I can remember. I do miss lazy days though that consist of eating ice cream and cake while watching a marathon of movies and dramas all day.
^ Being lazy is a big problem for me though. I keep using it as an excuse to not focus on the things that matter and that cannot be delayed. I feel so up and down sometimes in my walk as a Christian. I'm not sure if I can call it a walk yet or if I can firmly say that I am a Christian yet. I'm trying to be stronger. I want to want more of God. I want to experience what it feels like to be on fire for God. But I'm not sure if my desire is great enough. I pray for selfish reasons sometimes, when I need something from God right away. And I talk to Him for only a short while and go off to do other things that keep me busy. I feel a tug when I think of my friends and family who don't know God. JDSN said that before I can save anyone, I need to save myself. If me and someone else I know is drowning, I need to reach the shore to be able to save that person. I feel like it's going to take a long while for me to reach the shore. My heart moves but my mind isn't as willing. :(
so hungry!
