Ipad3

Writing my first entry on my new ipad3 yeeeee! I never thought about purchasing an ipad before or desperately wanted it, but now that I have one (all thanks and gratefulness to OMGPOP and its ceo), things are so much more convenient! i dont have to lug my heavy laptop around and it's easy to go online wherever i am. Technology being a double-edged sword, I am also more prone to getting distracted and entertained by this beautiful ipad! *_*

Writing has also never been easier, and the urge crept up on me. I am connected anywhere I go :D and I am more inclined to update as I do.

Back to the point of this blog. I realize that I am indecisive and have a difficulty staying firm. It also takes me a long time to figure out what I truly want. Before I decide, I have a habit of asking all of my close friends for their advice and opinions on what they think I should do. Why is it so hard to know what I want? Shouldn't self-analysis be easier for ze self?

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I walk a joyful road, the only one that I have ever known. Don't know where it goes, but it's not just me and I walk cheerfully. - rewrote a song by Green Day :)

Last night seemed like a terrible blur once i got home, but it made me learn something deep about myself. 

My jealousy and sadness erupted and very unfortunately, my mom wound up taking the direct hit . Sometimes, the questions she asks rubs me the wrong way and i explode. Why couldn't I respond more nicely? Why do I take her for granted so much? Regret and painful recalls of the moments soon follow. Terribly vicious.

Mama Lee is a strong cheery woman. If I were in her shoes for a day, I know that I wouldn't be able to handle life as well as she does. Most of the time, I forget that she is also a gentle woman and not a mom made of steel skin who isn't affected by the evil words that I spew out. I am terrible daughter.

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Sunday Morning

This morning, waking up in time for church was a fail..

I woke up to the sounds of yelling between mom and grandma. I feel bad for both of them, but more so for mom. Grandma puts her through so much everyday. No one will be able to understand what she has to go through. Even I can't imagine how she feels, and I've seen her go through it all. My mom is really strong and supportive and I know that I should be nicer, more gentle towards her but my own selfishness gets the better of me. I can't help but feel resentful towards grandma sometimes. I know, I know. She is very old and fragile :( and she's at that age where she cannot take care of herself. Although mom tends to nag alot, I know that she means well and is only doing it because she cares. No matter what grandma puts her through, she forgives easily and does her best to be the caring daughter that she is.

Today, we celebrated my cousin's 27th birthday early!

we're so big now! my cousin aka bro aka bully aka realist

It was really nice bonding times. My belly ached from all the food.

Stuffed and sleepy

Times are Tough

Sugar Withdrawal Symptoms:
-sudden cravings throughout the day
-dessert daydreaming
-cannot focus while trying to study
-grilling people who eat sweets in front of me :0(
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